disclaimer

i had meant to mention this as part of my first entry.

i am an atrocious speller.
so, being the artist that i am, i will be laying it all out on the canvas. unedited and uncensored.
this may be irritating to some (possibly i'll get a volunteer to clean up after me) but for the purpose of this blog
i think that the best results will come from this method.
especially if i have more nights like last night.

this will be an R rated blog.

i often express myself with very offensive language that will be considered vulgar and or demeaning.
basically if youre a whinny biiatch you shouldnt read on.

please note that at heart i am a kind and loving person.

i am also extremely emotional and absorb others emotions.
i take every thing in and release much the way a geyser does.
only i spew out complete and utter filth.

the way i have come to deal with this abundance of feelings is when overwhelmed emotionally i purge myself with the most assholeish thing i can say. basically i vent and entertain myself. i guess im a sick man. no, strike that. i know i am. im doing this aint i.

note: unedited

alcohol and sleep depravation will also be large contributers to things not being a finished product.

but enough excuses

charles-fuck you
i would not be telling this accurately if not for you.
honesty and poker loses have no place together.
but you are ultimately correct. it will make this better

so after many big swings up 3, down 7, back up 2, then i ran into the best learning experience if i am able to realize it
i made the proper read on at least 6 out of 7 hands and was completely out drawn. top 2, aj, guy catches a set on turn-150.
i spelled weakness so i pushed with 77, called with k9off, flops 9, -160. go all in with kk, same guy calls with 99, flops set, -4ish. getting tired of the bull shit, tired in general so i go all in for my last 150 with top pair, top kicker, a7. guy calls with 75, makes gut-shot on river.

so i wish i was into s&m. this is pretty much the same thing. i hope its more like tantra s&m, hold out for a long time then nut. meaning today i will probably win it all back.
have to stay at the binions though just in case. $32 a night. as opposed to 129 at mgm with $40 off for poker rate (4hrs day min, $40 max deduct)
will still be playing at mgm. big wireless convention in town today

hope katy will still love me if i go broke

MN